Hello everybody...

from now on, i am not going to write anything in this board...

all the articles which i am going to write will be post in another blog

---> http://hans-lol.blogspot.com

and there will be a link which will transform to this english blog in the

new one~~~

hope you can still go to my new blog and take a look..

sincerely,
Hans

ALC reunion

     I haven't expected before that the activities about ALC after the ALC summer program would be that frequent and unforgettable. This summer vacation, there will be still several ALC participants joining the "reunion program" to meet ALC friends in their own countries.

     Peter Tsai and Steven visited Korea and Japan to see the korean and japanese firends. What's more, Kaori and Sinjae will also be in Seoul. Most important and excited of all, Akane has already been selected to get the internship for ALC-2008. I still couldn't believe that one of our ALC1-2007 participants got the internship. You have to know that only ONE person can be the intern for ALC-2008!!  It's our ALC1-2007 participants' honor, isn't it? I'm so happy to see Akane fulfill her dream that is going back to Stanford again after ALC last year.

     Then, for me, I'm going to visit Korea this end of summer vacation. But not for Japan....T_T... It's just because that I have more close friends from Korean than from Japan. And also it's because I'm learning korean in order to get better chance to be enrolled in the shipping company. But I must go to Japan to see you guys next winter vacation!! Hopefully I could go to visit korea again.....I really miss some of my korean friends...SEE YOU THIS SUMMER VACATION!!!

Finals, family problems, social values at the same time

     I think everyone who used to be student knows that when a student is preparing final exmas, he must want to put all emphasis on studies instead of worrying about many piffles that is less related to himself. Actually, I don't want to complain about something that often but.....unfortunately, I'm facing those kinds of annoying stuffs that I absof**inlutely needn't to cope with. This morning at first I was happy to eat breakfast with my mom (This hasn't happened for such a long time for the past few months because of her attention to managing restaurant).

     After a while she started to complain about my dirty room, my habit of eating, my part-time job!! Anyone who visited my house or saw the pictures of my room before all knows that my room is already clean ENOUGH!! I still couldn't figure out why my mom is always not satisfied with my room?!....-_- What's more, I told her I've already changed my part-time job recently. I'm doing a new part-time job as a clerk in library instead of being a personal tutor for junior students.

     Though the wage in library is much lower than personal tutor  (3.2 USD/per hour VS 16 USD/per hour) , I've already tired of teaching children! My mom still can't agree that I spend the same time but earn that poor money~ I mentioned that I wanted to expSrience different styled of part-time jobs, not just earn money as much as possible like a making-money machine..... No doubt, finally we had no consensus on these topics and argued fusiously in the late morning~

     Such an awful beginning in one day~>< Whatever, compared to other things, my finalsis the priority for me now. I don't care about other things until the finals is over~

     Today is really not my day but I believe tomorrow will be better~

 

soooo addicted to making my own blogger....

although there are always many people managing their own blog on the internet....i didn't consider about making my own blog on the internet until i found "google blogger"!!!

actually...google blogger has much difference from other companies' in taiwan....generally in taiwan's normal blog, all section and components have already been set and fixed on the page.

Instead, there are only basic element such as "post comments", "writing machines" on it...if i want to put the connection such as Flickr icon or Facebook icon....i should write the programs of them by myself. but! that's the point that really attracted me to do the research on it!! another advantage is that we all know that google is the world famous company..so of course "google blogger" is much more famous than others.

so i created two bloggers.....one is writtn in english, another one is written in chinese. obviously..the english version is for my foreign friends ans the chinese version is for my taiwanese friends...

i had to admitted that in fact, last night i couldn't sleep well just becasuse of the magic of blogger...i only slept for a while and got up to continue my study on blogger.....finally i counted that i only slept for about two hours....omg...it was too crazy...i think i shouldn't do like this anymore..= =

anyway.....google blogger is the place where amazing happens!!!!

renew

recently...i understand how to keep balance between my own business-schoolwork and my feelings and thoughts toward others....
there's no need to talk about this too much....

i should change my mood from lovesickness toward the positive and ambitious will.....

no matter what will happen...that's not i have to worry about now....
just put it aside please...Hans...
everytinhg will gonna be okay..at the end.....i hope so....

cheer up!!!!!

i like you

every morning after getting up..the first thought is about you...

i am afriad of listening to ballad songs...because when listening...all i
am thinking about is you~

i don't know that you are so important to me until these days....

this time....it's not just to say good bye to a my best friends like saying goodbye to ALC last summer....

this time..it's that saying goodbye to a girl that i like so much...saying goodbye to a girl that i really want to take care and cherish....

i haven't had such a heartbroken mind in my life until this time...

you won't know how much i like you during these days......

has it alreadt been impossible for us ???

even if there is only few chances i will try and wait....

waiting for you~

still miss you~

no one knows that how much i miss you after you left.....

in the past two days after your leaving....i couldn't pay attention to

anything in daily.....every moment when i thought about you......my tears

were almost falling down.....

finally i just pretended that nothing happened so that to prevent this kind

of sadness....

these days..it's just like my soul has gone away....the things i had is

only a body....is it time to give up?????

i want to wait but is it possible???

who can tell me how to do it...

it's soooo painful that just thought of a girl that is so far from me....><

painful to death~

what should i do??

after hearing you said so.....
i havne't had spirit and haven't thought about anything for almost ywo days...

sometimes i am still wondering that should i give up ?? should i wait??? is
it almost impossible??

in the past few days...i missed you and thought about your letter every momoent...holding on tears and calming down are the things that i have to do during the days....i really don't know what should i do next....

the more i talk to you...the more i miss you.....the more i pretended that there is nothing happen.....the more i feel sad and sorrowful....

in the past few days...actually..i am not doing well at all.....
who can give me an answer???
i am downhearted always now.....so sad...i don't like this feelings..but i can't stop thinking about you.......

i really realy really like you and miss you~~~~~~

6 matters that was most unforgettable in ALC...

1.
MY HOST GROUP
My host grouop...georgina's host group!!! there is no doubt that georgina's host group is the BEST one in ALC...keke... because of george's easygoing and crazy personality, she successfully gathered all her host group members together. also, all of us have niceeeeee personality as well.

"Georgina, Nahee, Simon, Irene, Erina, Sonia, Chiaki, Hyun, Shinsuke, Hans" such a wonderful combination...isn't it?? i remember all activities we host group had at Stanford. i love you guys soooooo much, i really hope that one day all our hopst group members can meet together in one place in the near near future~


2.
i couldn't forget the time that practicing singing the song "My Love" in Mirlo Lounge with Chiaki, my accompanist in talent show. at the last few days, we almost spent every afternoon to practice this song. she was always tolerant about my fault while singing. finally i think we all did a great job in the talent show.

3.
alondra 300, where gossip and amazing happened...when it comes to my room. i must have to mention about my roommate- Unseok. i still think i was so lucky to be his roommate at Stanford. it was him that taught me a lot about english learning and also it was him that introduced me to other korean friends. and still...it was him that brought akko and erina back to our room to let us talked a lot and got to know each other more than before. i also missed the time that waking unseok up in the late morning and brought breakfast to our room for unseok. generally speaking, everyone all thought that it's easier for me to oversleep than unseok....but!! i don't know why i often woke him up in the morning before breakfast...such a sleepy unseok.....= = anyway, unseok....you are one of my best friends in ALC....Be friends forever~


4.
i liked to stay in Aondra Lounge and discussed the homework with my classmates in the same section--- Maggie, Abraham, Sonia, Grace Huang, Byunk-Hak So, Chiaki, Takashi, Yuki, Yuhka, Sayaka, and also...Hans.....moreover, i also enjoy talking to friends fomr other section. it was funy that i found out that students from section 6 gathered together in Alondra Lounge more often than other sections. i don't know why.....as i saw, Dave, Simon, Akane, Nahee Emily...i remembered that I've got to know Nahee and Akane more than before since they section 6 stayed in Alondra Lounge while i was also there...i definitely won't forget the feelings and atmosphere with other people in Alondra Lounge, especially with frineds who lived in Alondra.



5.
i also couldn't forget tha happy pool games time at night in Alondra lounge with my lovely korean friends- Jaehoon and Cholung. they taught me a lot about the skill of playing pool. and also...i missed the time we three (Jaehoon, Cholung, Hans) went to downtown Palo Alto by ourselves. we three just rode our own bike to downtown Palo Alto and had fun there.we encountered so much fun and amazing there. thank you, you two~

6.
it was such a cool experience that Michael, Simon, Chiaki and me missed the Caltrain in San Francisco....finally Georgina and Bryanpicked us up at the Caltrain station....at the momentwe saw George and Bryan, we were soooooo excited and nervous.....thank you so much to "saved us"!!! George and Bryan!!!hahaha

the song "My Love"

for me, the snog "My Love" is the most impressive and unforgettable
song now these months after ALC.

everytime i listen to this song..all my memory at Stanford come up to
my mind....especially the time i practiced singing this song in FloMo dorm. i practiced in Alondra Lounge, in my room- Alondra 300 with sunshine, on the path on the top floors....etc. most important of all, during the talent show, that time was my debut of singing in public. i used to joined a
singing contest before but it was 10 years ago.....=_= during the talent show. i was too nervous to memorize all lyrics. luckily, many ALCers sang with me at the same time. their voice covered some of my drawbacks. particularly, i was impressive by Nahee because of her help while i was singing the song "My Love" in the talent show. she sit in the from seat and sang louder than others. it really helped me a lot. imagine that someone who is recognized as a queen of singer help you singing at the same time!!!!!...kkkk.....

of course it;s my honor to be helped by a famous singer in ALC!! i
don't think i will forget how to sing "My Love" in my life because of what i said in talent show-"MY LOVE is in ALC1-2007"!!

let's sing it together next time, my ALC friends.

missing continually....

actually i've been missing you after last summer vacation....

i dare not to tell you my really feelings about it..

but i will tell you in the near future i think

whatever...i miss you..and somewhat already become a crush on you

or more than a crush on you.....become "like" you......

music~

before visiting korea this winter vacation, when it comes to music, i only focus on country music.i didn't know that much about other kinds of music even though i went to a Jazz concert a few days ago...when i was in seoul, especially in nahee's house, she told me a lot of news and information about music....she doesn't prefer one kind of music; instead, she loves all sorts of music!! i could listen to all kinds of music while nahee was playing her music...there's no doubt that nahee can sing really well, but the amazing happened when she gave me those songs she recommanded.i live allof those songs she gave me after trip in korea~. i feel free and relax while listening to the songs that is kind of ballad......i feel excited while listening to the songs belonging to pop. that's the reason why i call nahee "the queen of singer."......ahhhhhhhh~ i really want to know the song you sang it before and sent it to me~

i also want to know why you can still sing well while you are getting cold and having sore throat these period of time...kkkkkkkkk
don't blame on me...hahahaha

lovesickness

as title...
that is what i encontered now....

miss.....
miss.....
also miss
still miss

hate

i hate myself....

i feel painful....
i couldn't accomplish the goal that my parents set for me...actually i don't wanna do for others..i want to be myself....

anxious, unassisted, disorientated, adynamic....

the above are what i felt the past few hours...

who can survive me from the abyss....god damn....>"<

2/26....korean class

at 2/26, i took a korean class opened only this semester..it took me three hours sitting in the classroom. i thought the teacher teaches really well, but she spent too much time showing us the TV shows and movies that used korean speaking.the way of taking korean class i like is the normal way..not the way as teaching child.....this is because i am rookie in learning korean, so i want learning the basic skills and building my foundation of korean well enough to have a conversation with koreans...anyway...finally i withdraw the class; instead, i've already found a korean as my personal tutor....that means i have to pay the money that i earn from part-time job to the korean personal tutor...but i think this is oky..i want to learn korean....anyway,,i hope everything goes smoothly..i relly want to talk to you in a few months i korean....i must try my best to learn the language "korean".

Bastard!!!

人有時候就是犯賤
已經用最大極限容忍你了
已經好言相勸說了
你還是聽不懂

還是要用那種你也知道我最不能接受的方式跟我說話

你不是犯賤是什麼??

王八蛋

有點Low~

這學期結束了
非常平淡而且低落的結束了
感覺這學期在課業上是最沒有收穫了
其他方面還算ok吧我想
英文部分進步最多吧
也是最想讀的ㄧ個科目
至於感情呢....
心情上除了複雜還是複雜
遇見了妳
讓我在我最低潮的時候有個人陪
漸漸的喜歡妳
無法自拔的喜歡妳
喜歡到後來整顆心都被你攫了過去
但也慢慢的知道
我們之間的 不可能 > 可能
突然間了解到的那一瞬間
很失落~
但是我還是想要對妳好
我不想放棄
真的不想
我想慢慢縮小差距
年齡的差距
想法的差距
感覺的差距
現實的差距
還有看不見的差距

甚麼時候你口中講的"小孩子"
會變成你眼中的的Mr.Right?
我不知道

但我知道的是
我會一直喜歡妳........

第一次

第一次上英文課這麼想要翹課的
完全沒有沉浸在英文裡面的感覺
知道為什麼嗎?
因為你沒有來上課
感覺教室裡少了一個人的感覺
少了某種熟悉的聲音
少了"本身""路線"等等聽慣了的用語
下課了也是少了一小段路程
少了一個本來我要載的人

整整兩個半小時
幾乎沒有一分鐘是投入的
今天是我講最少英文的一堂英文課
不是會話課了..都要變成聽力課了..= =

原來看不到一個已經習慣見到的人的感覺

是這樣坐立難安
是這樣無精打采

改個標題好了
叫做"第一次沒有妳在的英文課"好了...

影響力

這幾個月來

妳對我有一種無形的影響力

這種影響力說不上來

說出來也就不真實了

以上

妳

為什麼又讓我感覺我又有了一絲絲的希望了呢?

這到底是不是幻覺我真的不知道

好複雜

好糾結

好難形容

連我都不知道我到底要不要在繼續下去

有時感覺不可能

有時又感覺有點希望

我到底該怎麼辦....

一些感想about ALC Taiwanese

sinjae和bryan離開台灣也快一個禮拜了
我突然覺得不太習慣沒有sinjae,bryan和eros的日子
可能是他們來的八天裡
我們四個每天都會碰面
又很珍惜大家相處的日子
所以現在才會感覺怪怪的
不知道下一次會是什麼時候
可能馬上就會來到
也有可能再也沒機會了
誰知道呢....

當然還有很多ALC1的好朋友們
在大家都那麼忙的情形下
還能見到他們
真的很高興

尤其是sonia,michael
一個是我學長~
一個是section5的funny girl~
這次下來又多了一個頭銜
那就是喝酒固定班底兼lounge bar禁衛軍....

michael...白天上班晚上還來陪酒聊天...真的很辛苦...你還載我回家...真的很謝謝你..明明就不順路還載我回家。還有送機那天也是載我和Eros和David回家..你人真的是超好~^^thanks a lot~

sonia...你也是很累..明明還有報告要趕...還有很多作業..晚上也是照來不誤
一個女生在外面要隨時注意自己身體啊...還有妳菸抽的有點太多了喔~對身體不好喔....最後星期四回家還發燒了對吧...再怎麼捨命陪君子自己也要多照顧一下自己喔...不然下次不讓你參加!!...免得身體又會搞壞.....

eros...一個禮拜之內燃燒小宇宙...真的是累死妳了...很累齁~對不起啦找不到人...而且你現在還要準備重考...不過接下來的考試你好好加油....需要幫忙說一聲就好了..我們都是你的後盾...^^

Bryan sinjae eros hans sonia michael
我們這六個人
大概是上禮拜幾乎天天去喝酒的六個
真有點不敢置信

雖然後來兩次我都很累快睡著的樣子
(林可穠妳不要再說那是我的style了...再說我生氣了喔>"<...用英文名字說不聽..看看叫中文會不會聽懂一點...)
但是其實在吞雲吐霧之間
我也都在想事情啊
我在想說我們要是在stanford的時候就像現在這麼熟那該有多好
我也在想說現在好好記住每一個人的臉孔
人生嘛很難說的
那就把握當下吧我的好朋友們....^^

最後還是官腔一下..
希望大家以後都還是我好朋友
我很珍惜和你們的友誼
希望你們也是...
希望下次再見
而且是很快很快就再見面~^^

now...

如果單就朋友的人際關係來說
不說別的的話

我覺得我這方面還算過得很愜意
雖然有在等待什麼的樣子
但是沒有刻意追求什麼..
就隨著時間的變化走吧
看看最後會怎樣那就怎樣吧
有些事本來就強求不得的阿~

想開了心情就好很多^^

政治這種東西...

政治這種東西有時候跟酒精一樣會上癮的
其實很想談政治
又不想在個版po
不然一定會戰起來
又沒人跟我討論
跟我爸討論又會吵架
但是偏偏我又愛看報紙愛看政論文章
連雜誌也翻了翻

政治這種東西
我想
上癮是可以
但是不能被它綁架......

朋友跟好朋友...

朋友跟好朋友很難界定喔

一不小心就會跑到另一邊了喔

隨意啦~

怎麼會這樣...

偷偷說一下...
突然發現
我喜歡上喝酒了...
有點上癮了
只有一點點啦
一點點點點點點而已~

calm down...Hans~

黃柏翰妳冷靜一點
大方向要抓穩
輪廓要清楚
再來處理枝微末節的事

就先當朋友吧
沒什麼不好
嗯就這樣

感情事是我的死穴
每次碰到就像失了魂一樣~
真不知道我在搞什麼鬼

反正現在已經平靜多了
哈哈
趕快把以前失去的找回來~^^