lovesickness

as title...
that is what i encontered now....

miss.....
miss.....
also miss
still miss

hate

i hate myself....

i feel painful....
i couldn't accomplish the goal that my parents set for me...actually i don't wanna do for others..i want to be myself....

anxious, unassisted, disorientated, adynamic....

the above are what i felt the past few hours...

who can survive me from the abyss....god damn....>"<

2/26....korean class

at 2/26, i took a korean class opened only this semester..it took me three hours sitting in the classroom. i thought the teacher teaches really well, but she spent too much time showing us the TV shows and movies that used korean speaking.the way of taking korean class i like is the normal way..not the way as teaching child.....this is because i am rookie in learning korean, so i want learning the basic skills and building my foundation of korean well enough to have a conversation with koreans...anyway...finally i withdraw the class; instead, i've already found a korean as my personal tutor....that means i have to pay the money that i earn from part-time job to the korean personal tutor...but i think this is oky..i want to learn korean....anyway,,i hope everything goes smoothly..i relly want to talk to you in a few months i korean....i must try my best to learn the language "korean".

Bastard!!!

人有時候就是犯賤
已經用最大極限容忍你了
已經好言相勸說了
你還是聽不懂

還是要用那種你也知道我最不能接受的方式跟我說話

你不是犯賤是什麼??

王八蛋

有點Low~

這學期結束了
非常平淡而且低落的結束了
感覺這學期在課業上是最沒有收穫了
其他方面還算ok吧我想
英文部分進步最多吧
也是最想讀的ㄧ個科目
至於感情呢....
心情上除了複雜還是複雜
遇見了妳
讓我在我最低潮的時候有個人陪
漸漸的喜歡妳
無法自拔的喜歡妳
喜歡到後來整顆心都被你攫了過去
但也慢慢的知道
我們之間的 不可能 > 可能
突然間了解到的那一瞬間
很失落~
但是我還是想要對妳好
我不想放棄
真的不想
我想慢慢縮小差距
年齡的差距
想法的差距
感覺的差距
現實的差距
還有看不見的差距

甚麼時候你口中講的"小孩子"
會變成你眼中的的Mr.Right?
我不知道

但我知道的是
我會一直喜歡妳........

第一次

第一次上英文課這麼想要翹課的
完全沒有沉浸在英文裡面的感覺
知道為什麼嗎?
因為你沒有來上課
感覺教室裡少了一個人的感覺
少了某種熟悉的聲音
少了"本身""路線"等等聽慣了的用語
下課了也是少了一小段路程
少了一個本來我要載的人

整整兩個半小時
幾乎沒有一分鐘是投入的
今天是我講最少英文的一堂英文課
不是會話課了..都要變成聽力課了..= =

原來看不到一個已經習慣見到的人的感覺

是這樣坐立難安
是這樣無精打采

改個標題好了
叫做"第一次沒有妳在的英文課"好了...

影響力

這幾個月來

妳對我有一種無形的影響力

這種影響力說不上來

說出來也就不真實了

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